In Memories ... Part 3

We will go back whenever there is a long weekend and during school holiday I will let them stay there thru out the school holidays. I know now all her interest is in the kids already. For her now, all the kids she taken cared before all already grown up. And her only ac-companion is the kids.

monkey climb

3-2-1

Small Bully

Enjoying

Until when she start to sick, she never call for few days and the kids eventually missed her and called her. Her tears will flow down even without her noticing it. and my kids will comfort her. This made her days. In hospitals, my kids will share the food with her, while draining her urine bag, my son will help her. My kids sometime will feed her. A simple move really touched her in her heart.

Sharing a bed

The struggling between hospital and home take place for more than 6 months. This period of time, we really saw true color of peoples around us. The true color. Disappointment and unhappiness made her decided to follow me to Johor. I know with her condition, she cannot really sit for too long yet she still follow me for the whole long 3 hours journey from Melaka to Johor. Knowing time is not long, we tried to satisfied her need to the best of our knowledge.

Only 2 and a half week she stayed with us, we have to send her back to Hospital. Just that this time it is Johor Hospital, Her condition getting from bad to worst. She cannot even move her body and what worst, because she had diabetic and bed bounded for sometime, her back starting to skin-peel. And she need to rely on oxygen to breath. It was a painful experience to see her suffering. Then my sister plan to bring her back to Melaka which I strongly object. she already suffering from such pain yet they want to let her travel all the way back to Melaka.

Last moment

2 days before she passed away, my sister message me to arrange discharge procedure in Johor hospital. I was so mad that I did not reply any message. Until on the morning that she passed away, morning 8am i called my sister telling her if they insist of bringing her back to Melaka, I will not interfere anymore on my aunt. I have to said that to prevent them bringing her back. Just an hour after my call to my sister, Hospital called breaking the news my aunt has passed away. I was thinking I suppose to visit her after the shower and unable to finish my shower, the phone rang.

Rushing to the hospital, my mind was blank along the way. Reaching the hospital , with heavy heart, we went up to her ward. I hold my feeling and told myself I cannot cry. Cause if I cried, my wife will feel sadder. I calm my mind proceed with the procedure of discharging her. A message to inform other family members.

Final view

At the mortuary, they asking me how to bring her back to melaka, without second thought, i ask if i can bring her back in my car? permission given and I bring her back in my car. Before heading over to Melaka, I stopped by my Johor house to tell her we are going back. Along the road back to Melaka 3 hours, I was holding back my feeling. once a while my tears will fall. Trying hard to recall the memories we had, I don't know why only memories when i was small. Where is the memories of me and her when adult? Oh Gost...

Remembered forever

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On this day 12 Oct 2016, it was 54 days after she left us. Sometime when sitting alone, will think of her. I can only said: " Kocik.... You will always be remembered...."

Gathering